Fuck the years of abuses
I know your gonna blame me instead
How many times did I have to say?
Please don’t grab me that way
It always started when I pushed you away
Every time I felt I might die
No matter how hard I tried to fight back
I was always quick to come back
Those tears in your eyes
They got me every time
The sweet words you would say
Every time you begged me to stay
I know it’s my fault
You knew how angry I could get
I knew inside my words would hurt
With every one of your lies
I kept dying inside
Of course I tried to walk away
Of course you grabbed me, so I push you away
The tighter your grip
The more I flailed and hit
You said I can’t leave
You said you love me
You said I can’t leave
You said we are a family
If only I didn’t try to leave
If only I didn’t say a word
If only I couldn’t feel
If only I couldn’t be heard
You knew I loved you
Your every word and every tear
They got me to stay every time
Now you’re done, Now you’re bored
You walked away, I hold on tight
You blame me for your words and your action
Blame me for my love and my reaction
So much for our love
Of course it’s easy for you to leave
So much for our family
How can you walk away so easily?
I am free right?
But I am bound by my love for you
My heart so dedicated to you
My womb bound by the promises of another child
My finger bound by the ring you gave
My future bound the future you painted
Now maybe I can be a different happy?
Hoping now things and you will be different
Nope now it’s not physical, now you have upgraded
Now it’s emotional
Psychological warfare is your play
Will there be a day?
Will I ever get away?
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