Little Monster

You were the lightning bolt that brought me to life
You held me and kissed me
Didn't know what these feelings were

You guided me through life
Holding me with every step
Told me these feelings were love

I was so unsure of this love
But I knew I was alive when I was with you
There you were to claim my life

I committed to you
I provided for you
I cared for you

With every lie, I died
Every excuse, I cut
With every lie, unhinged
Every excuse, I drunk

It always felt like something new
Every time I could brake things too
It was the only way to not hurt you

I could only hurt myself
I would drink and cut
You would always hold me down
You would always choke me out

This was the only way you knew how to stop me
This was the end result when I would try to leave

Of course I hit back
Of course I bite you
Of course I would grab the closes thing and stab you

I couldn't be left alone
I couldn't walk away
No matter how I felt
No matter what I would say

You say I am changing
What about you?
This is not who I fell in love with
But I still loved and would die for you

Your words and tears
You got me to submit every time
Every fight, punch, kick, and choking
You got me to stay every time
Of course I fight back
Of course I hurt you too

Am I no longer the helpless doll?
Am I no longer broken enough?
To strong for my own good?

You say I am paranoid
You say I am untrusting
You did this to me
I am what you created

With every good moment
With every bad one
I am the creature you created
The creature you hate
The creature you blame

You know what you did
You know what I hated
You're the reason I am jaded

You wanted to destroy this
Well you succeeded
Applying the shock, that stopped my heart
Killing the creature you created