!!!!! MAIL !!!!!

BEST MAIL CALL EVER. CAME HOME TO THE BEST PACKAGE OF MAIL EVER THIS MONTH. HAHAHA BECAUSE THERE IS ALWAYS SOMETHING GOOD EVERY MONTH. BUT THIS MONTH IS PRETTY DAMN GOOD I GOT MY PHLEBOTOMY LICENSE AND CERTIFICATE!!!!! BEST THING EVER AND ALSO THIS WEEK MY SON'S COSTUME HAS COME IN THE MAIL SO HAS MINE. HOWEVER, UNLIKE MINE THAT I AM CUTTING AND SEWING TO READJUST IT TO ME HIS FITS PERFECT. NOW TO GO GET SOME SWORDS.

EMAIL

Got the most incredible email this week, most exciting thing this week. I got an email from CDPH and they approved me !!!! They are approving me for my Phlebotomy Technician 1 License!!!! I am an official Phlebotomist I am a CPT1 !!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHH !!!!!! Super excited, I spent this week approving and updating my resume with the help of my friend Dannica and my husbands mom with perfecting it. Thanks to Cesar's mom who is a Nurse and knows what the medical field seeks in a resume helped perfected my resume. Super stoked  I am going to start applying to laboratories this week I can not contain my over flowing excitement!

Lets see what tomorrow brings. And where I am going to apply to. Maybe I should so my homework first before i start applying tomorrow.

You

You

Here I Lay Dying Within.

Asphyxiating On My Own Sorrow.

How Pathetic Is That?

I Wouldn't Be Dying Had You Not Given Me This Heart.

This Heart Of Feeling.

This Object Of Emotion.

Why Give Me This Heart And Tell Me Not To Feel

I Feel Love For You.

I Long For You

But, I Feel Pain By You.

I Feel Sorrow Because of You.

You Say I Must Not Feel.

But I Do Feel.

Why Do I Feel?

I Have Never Felt Before.

It's Because Of You I Feel This Way.

Because Of You I Feel Pain.

Because Of You I Feel Sorrow.

But You Also Make Me Feel Love.

And You Make Me Feel Bliss

Here I Lay Dying Inside.

Drowning In My Own Pain.

How Sad Is That?

Why Do You Do This To Me?

You Tell Me You Love Me.

You Tell Me You Care.

But, You Lie To Me All Over Again.

And, You Hurt Me Over and Over Again.

You Tell Me I Must Only feel Love For You.

I Do Feel Love For You.

You Tell Me I Can Not Feel Sadness Because Of You.

But, I Am Sad Because Of You.

I Never Felt Before I Meet You.

Why Give Me This Heart And Not Let Me Feel?

I Feel Love For You, That Is Ok.

I Long For You, That Is Ok.

But, I Feel Pain By You, That Is Not Ok.

I Feel Sorrow Because Of You, That Is Not Ok.

I Would Not Be Dying If I Did Not Have This Heart.

This Heart Full Of Feeling.

This Heart Over Whelming With Emotion.

Here I Lay Dying Within.

Asphyxiating On My Sorrow.

How Pathetic Is That?

Last Time?

Last Time?

Was that to be our last time together?

Was it to be as horrible as it was?

Are we never to love each other again? 

Our broken hearts seek for its completed self.

Yet our broken promises separate the distance between us.

Your words stop my heart with the deadly venom they hold.

Even now as I am dying you have a smile in your eyes.

Was that to be our last moment together?

Was there nothing more for us?

Will it still hurt for years to come? 

Spiteful feelings pouring across the open distance.

Our love shattered by blows.

Your heating strikes stop me in my tracks, till I hit the floor. 

As I suffer by your hands you grin with pleasure.

Was this our destiny? 

Was this nothing we could avoid?

Is this all that is left?

Broken promises, feelings, and hearts.

Nothing but pain, agony, and remorse.

Only bruises, scars, and tears to mark the years.

Was there nothing to this love?

Only two hollow shells remain.

They do nothing but sulk in their pain.

Yet there is only one joy to this tragedy.

A joy to a sad love song?

Oh yes in deed.

A baby boy cute as can be.

The only great joy that came from this love tragedy.

Was this the last joy we were to share?